Sleep Deprivation

I was very excited when my hold on the book,  5th trimester, was available through the Libby app. I prefer physical books to electronic copies, but in Covid times + having a baby and not always having access to a book that app has been a lifesaver. Sidenote, sometimes I feel guilty about reading instead of staring at my daughter's face the entire time she's taking a bottle but not enough to stop so I guess I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. Anyway, I was excited for this book because it's supposed to be full of tips and tricks about getting ready to go back to work after having a baby. I suppose it is full of tricks, but only for women who work in offices and honestly it felt like Lifetime movie office jobs in publishing or fashion design or fashion publishing. There are a few anecdotes from women who work outside of cubicles, but not many and the teacher fell flat for me. None of the tips were groundbreaking. Get daycare figured out, putting on lipstick will make

Today I opened my dresser drawer that had real pants from the long ago pre-Covid, pre-pregnancy time in my life. I'm not sure what possessed me to open that drawer while being dressed. I've been exclusively in leggings, sweats, pajama pants and anything with an elastic waist and stretchy fabric for a year now. I assumed buttons and zippers would stay in my twenties along with sleeping in. Instead of immediately closing the door, I saw my favorite pair of jeans on top. I've had these jeans for four years now. They shouldn't still be intact as they are from Target and I expect that Target clothes all come with a date that one day they will disenegrate while you are wearing them. However, this flower embroidered pair of pants that fits perfectly at my ankles (how many times does a 5'3" woman get to say that?) seemed to be going strong back in the pre days. In awe I lifted them out of the drawer. As I unfolded them, I worried that this would be a bad idea. I worrie